Well, we have been getting back into a routine of normalcy around here. Ben is in school, and swimming lessons, and we are just all around less busy. I am also getting used to living here and my job here so i have a nice routine that i follow every day. God has really answered my prayers and helped me to be content and love the little souls i take care of every day. Here are some pictures from my life recently.
this is what my kitten does when we're at the vet. she's cute
i had a fun day with rose, one of my friends that i met at nanny school. she just got married!
Today I started doing the 30 day shred! I also want to start doing the couch to 5k so I can run in the jingle bell run in December. And I started just being healthier in general. No more candy. No more fast food, etc. I need to change my ways! Keri and I are doing the shred together and she is my motivation to eat healthier and just live healthier! She's awesome.
In the wise words of Mo Higgins, it's always good to laugh to keep from crying.
Sometimes I feel like crying at my stupidity. But I'll try to laugh...
I have been thinking a lot about the horrible attitude I have had in the last few months about Titus 2. I distinctly remember telling Leila one night "I shouldn't even go because nothing applies to me!"
I'm so stupid. I wish I would have paid more attention. I find my self going back over and over the books we have read trying to catch up and figure things out. God has a sense of humor. I thought it was going to be years until any of those things about being in the trenches of raising children would apply. Well guess what, I have two kids now. And I'm in the trenches. And I'm drowning. I have no idea what I'm doing. People always say "You are so good with kids!" Well yes, I'm good with kids who are trained by their parents. I don't know how to be a parent. I have been completely humbled over and over. I have seen so much sin come out of me that I have never seen before. It's scary. I have also never prayed and read my Bible so much in my life. The only way I will ever get through this is with God's help.
Finally I have started my job and the first week is already over! It went by really fast. I love how busy and fun it is. It's hard too but nothing good is comes easily. I've spend a lot of time with children but being with two kids that aren't your own all day is completely different and I've learned a lot about planning a day and how to deal with problems and those types of things. I mostly have been with other people's children and I do exactly what the parents tell me all the time I'm there. But now with my job I have to make my own decisions on how to handle discipline, how to handle the time, what to eat, what to watch, what to play with, etc. I also don't have a lot of experience taking care of boys. I think i've spend a lot of time with 15 girls and maybe 3 boys. So I am good with girls and not very good with boys. I think I'm going to read Future Men by Doug Wilson to start off my learning curve. If anyone has any advice let me know. Overall I'm loving it and getting adjusted and I'm excited for the future!
It's now been almost six months since I graduated from English Nanny & Governess School and left Ohio. Now that I look back on it, I see how good it really was for me and how much it made me appreciate my family, church, friends, etc. I am also extremely grateful for the education I received and the friends I made, and all the lessons I learned about dealing with other people and controlling my emotion, and acting like a christian and being different from the world.
After six months of searching, interviewing, and praying, I have found a job with a family that I believe I will love and was well worth the wait. It is amazing how God opened these doors for me when I wasn't even looking at them. A lady at my parents' church works for a family who needed a nanny. This lady who doesn't know me very well, but is good friends with my mom, told the family about me. I met with them and talked with them. We got a long great. I met the children, they are great. I bought a car that I need for the job with cash. The whole situation is great. Even when I was impatient God still provided for me. And now tomorrow I am going to start my job. God is so good.
My parents and family have stressed so much to me how blessed I truly am. WIth the economy in it's horrible state, it is amazing that at my young age I was able to get a great job so quickly. There are people who spend thousands of dollars and many years on school and cannot find a job. There are people with children to provide for and a house to pay for who haven't been able to find a job for months and months. There are not many 19 year olds who have a trust fund that provided them with school without loans, and a car for her job. From a great aunt that I barely knew. God has a plan for me. A GOOD plan. And even if things seem bad, everything works out for good. I am overwhelmed with the amount of good things God has given me. Now I just need to make sure I use all of the opportunity to honor Him, and not myself.